(threading. tiny acts of repair)

ink drip

disintegration

changeability. trace

Transgre

ssion.

Stain. Permanence. Proof. Evidence.

What’s the difference between a mark and a trace?

Permanent/explicit action v's an ephemerality, a possibility of… implicit action

Is trace the process of loosing a mark???

Love the notion of dialogue between people/words/spaces or things – a series of simple exchanges offering/insight new knowledge/understanding.

Began reading MOB’s conversation with Ron Athey – felt a little strange (remembering RA seeing a piece at the gallery at Warwick uni….) not sure how my practice would ever ‘fit’ into this world….of blood letting/ I am not marked. Not enduring a physical condition/illness yet still feel a connection or a need to display/mark/reveal my female flesh – possibly some kind of questioning relating to validity??? Belonging. The histories/traces housed within me. Can I make valid body work - interior marks?? Yet still related to the idea of performance - making ‘something’ visible through and because of the body.

Interested in how this related to the notion of autobiography – to also be about something not just navel gazing….MOB aiming at “an intersubjective" experience between himself (the performing body) and the spectators”

I have to consider (re) the context of being a female performer using her body explicitly, needs to make sense. Vulnerability/exposure/sensuality…

MOB – engaged with the endurance survival element to the work – not just in relation to the explicit sickness – watching his sick body surviving well…..(loved this phase).

MOB's use of materials – instant draw and connection to the work….watching the “juice of his wound” (RA) the physical coughing up /issues relating to decency, social acceptability – being taken and rubbed as a material substance onto his chest then rubbing in glitter - the materials/bodily secretions becoming a real and ready living reminder of the action – marking the impact of the act. How does the particularity of the material affect the viewer’s ability to connect to and remember the action? intimacy?? (do you need a one on one to experience it???)

Interested in the use and context of the glitter (how does this related to the choices I made ??) clear contextual reference to other performance artists (DJ/mob/dh) the interplay with gay/queer drag parifinalier – the divide between the jam jars of mucus and the ‘sparkling’ pretty boy seen. The artifice of the act and the desire to offer a step away from the current situation – substance used as deviance – playful/joy. Does MOB do this or does his use of the glitter material substance to just imbed himself further into his "own grimness"? Does this is any way relate to my ideas surround the use of glitter in performance as some kind of “ perfect stain”? The false/sweet artifice being skin surface texture? what the fuck is on the inside

Mark – inside and outside of the performance/self

Trace

Material

Stain - - - - - - - - - - - permanence

Disintegration - - - - - Loss – because of /through endurance

Moment - - - - - - - - - -the presence/the live act

Risk - - - - - - - - - because of/being in or out of control

Intimacy - - - - - - vulnerability

Distance - - - - - - - the gap

Memory